One in every three...

So I preface this by saying (on the off chance they see this) that I love both my roommates very much and do not judge them by their rantings....they have every right to their opinions and I think I understand just the rant tangents one can get caught up into...in fact this is a rant against ranting...an antiranting of sorts...I just don't agree with their sentiments. In fact I thought what they were saying was quite stupid.

In short one thing in particular especially bothered me.... Saying you think that one in every three people just dying randomly (by some virus or something) would be good for the world and you wouldn't care if it happened even if you or people in your family were one of the people to die is just stupid and you're lying. It's saying something for the affect of saying it. Denying your existence is stupid. Yes humanity has done a lot to fuck with the world...but it's in our nature and our nature...um came from nature! Yeah I don't think we should be defeatist, we should try to alter our nature otherwise we will just end up destroying ourselves but being ridiculously self righteous does no good either. Its pointless anger and its not really original either which bothers me when people think their thoughts are soooo original and 'no one understands' ...its creating a delusion of your own [moral] superiority...and it is just that, a delusion. The world doesn't give a shit if you die for it and I don't think one can honestly say they want what's "best for the world" at the cost of themselves because the world is just other organisms...it's projecting human moral idealism onto the natural world that just doesn't exist. Things compete and kill other things. This is how its done. Yeah I do think because of how self aware we are as a species that we should be doing more to be the shepherds not the destroyers of this planet but thats the thing when it comes down to it we're not better than anything else and we compete to survive and do what's in our best interest. Part of humanity is to be selfish and love those dear to you and saying you'd sacrifice yourself and/or those you love for "the world" is stupid. The world doesn't give a shit what you give to it. You simply gain some socially constructed utility by the prospect of martyrdom. The phrase just irked me. It's something little I know but the overall sentiments they were expressing invoked similar emotional responses of annoyance from myself...I guess I'm just self righteously against self righteousness.

Alright. Enough of that...time for drug induced sleeps.

Also, 42% of the human genome is made up of endogenous viruses... remnants of the past viruses that just eventually incorporated themselves into our DNA. Funsies.

And red panda. Winking.

Hello 2010, Two more years until the Apocalypse.

Huh, only 3 updates in 2009.

Well, I've been afraid to read this old blog...it's not quite as stupid as I thought it would be...still stupid but I only edited one entry because I felt guilty about making fun of someone. Really if they'd seen it it's too late anyway and really doesn't matter since I don't talk to them anymore, but still....I felt bad. Also I'm never posting links again....they just fail over time and it makes me angry when I want to see what I was talking about when I don't remember but can't...pictures and copy paste is okay...but yeah internet things deteriorate as well..

My life's been a mess for a while...just now starting to get a better grasp on things...It was of course soon after moving out I realized that Birnam Wood was a dark hole of place to live in. Like literally underground and dark. Such a depressing atmosphere to amplify the situation and everything that happened last (school) year.

Needless to say Junior year has been a lot better, and Fall quarter was quite enjoyable.

Hayley 2010 model.

I work at the recycle center.

Am a declared cellular and molecular bio major.

Have lots of new friends and still some of the old.

Live with 2 awesome people. Erin and Brittney.

Cut my hair short.

Over Kelsey, finally, for christ sake.

I think Robot Chicken Star Wars is the funniest thing ever right now and I practically know every line.

...I got a bike and am really going to try and ride it to school and stuff.

Also, I like Lady Gaga. What a twist!

Speaking of Lady Gaga....Grey is like a real tiny person now. He enjoys singing and dancing to music. Some of his faves are "Funhouse" by P!nk and "Boys Boys Boys" by Lady Gaga

Anyway...I'm sure I won't be able to not talk about me but I hope to talk more about my classes on this thing and why they're important to me...let's see if I actually have the energy to do so.

I got A's in the classes I care about.

Microbiology was really hard and I am very happy to have gotten an A in it...I learned a lot of interesting things but have already forgotten many of the details...I'm going to get my test back and do a Microbio highlights entry I swear before I completely forget everything.

Genetics was easy but I'm still glad to have gotten an A in it because for once I managed to not just completely not try and fuck up my grade in a class I thought was stupid.

Physics I got a B in...which I deserve.

This quarter I'm sort of angry with my schedule. I feel like I'm going to get sick of things real fast. I'm working a lot also. Which is good and bad at the same time....My school/work combined day will be at least 10am-4pm everyday.

Cell Bio I'm happy to take

Geology I'm content with though I'd rather be taking it next quarter when I'd maybe have be lucky to have Rachel as a TA

Phy'sucks' speaks for itself

I couldn't take Microbio lab because that'd be a total of 11 hours of lab a week....I couldn't just take it instead of Geology because that'd put me at 11 credits which is not a full time student status. Fuck you number 11.

one day.

meredith and I will find the answer.

why can cheese melt but not crackers!

This basically summarizes my life sometimes.

kate you're gonna be jealous

oh the sunsets at ebey's.
I pretended you were with me katie!

Five Screens

I am watching another episode of house. I like house, there's a marathon, it's ridiculous.
I am fixing my mom's computer. I think I can do it, we've had such bad tech luck.
I am sort of playing dinosaur king on my nintendo ds. It's alright.
I am updating my new I pod touch, It's cool but I really didn't need it. It was my christmas present from my dad and kate.
I am also on my own computer. Clearly.

Right now, especially, I feel like my thoughts and who I am contains only as much substance as the combination of the five.

new room set up. lots better. rip moldy memory foam mattress pad.